Start accepting your excuses because one day you’ll get bored of yourself.
Thank god I got sick of myself.
There’s an art in accepting your excuses because one day, you’ll get bored with yourself.
One day, you will wake up to yourself.
Whether that moment be the time you reach the end of this article, or 3 months from now, maybe even a year from now.
Just trust me on this one - if you’re an aware being (which I’m certain you are), it’s just a matter of time until you become dissatisfied with yourself and make a life change.
So what do I mean by “sick of yourself” - in what way? Sick of your behaviours? Language? The life you’re living?
Let me share a moment with you:
It was the 1st January 2024. I had the good energy of a new Year within me. I was taking the tube to meet my best friend at the gym (1st of january gym session of course) I had to buy a ticket for the tube, so I went to the counter, asked for a ticket and the man at the counter asked me if I was a student, I thought to myself no… but I guess I can get away with a student ticket? Why not.
So, I answered yes. Feeling sneaky and a sense of pride for my white lie and saving what I think was 15 Swedish kroner… woohoo, the year is off to a good start!
I hopped on the tube, minding my business, when I noticed the police who check tickets had just boarded the tube.
“sh*t,” I said to myself
They’re going to check my ticket.
Moments later, they checked my ticket, and I was in a humiliating conversation, holding a ticket fine of 1500 Swedish kroner (that’s 90x the price I paid for my cheap student ticket)
I was mortified.
Embarrassed.
Ashamed.
What in the world was I doing? Trying to save 15 kroner, for what?
This, I like to call: A turning point.
This was it. I became sick of my own excuses.
Sick of my excuses for:
Not making enough money
Being stingy
Not charging enough in business
Feeling guilty for making money
Sometimes it takes a humiliating experience, sometimes all it takes is a decision.
These humiliating experiences can also come through as ‘rock bottoms.’ they’re very powerful- but do we have to rely on a rock bottom to change… ? I don’t think so.
Trust yourself enough not to have to hit a rock bottom to change your life.
An experience like this happened before I started this Substack - guess how many months I had wanted to start writing here?
Many. Too many.
Until one day, I woke up, and I saw “start a substack” blocked into my calendar, tempted to move it over to tomorrow like I had always done, because the voice in my head said, “I don’t have time for that today.”
I made a decision.
I am SO sick of myself.
I either do this today, or I remove it completely and forget about my dream of writing on Substack.
The latter made me sad, that’s not what I wanted. So I chose to start.
Give yourself an ultimatum.
If the thing you’re putting off means that much to you- but you’re standing in your own way, or building a brick wall between you and the thing, make the ultimatum and become absolutely sick of yourself.
The reason why I tell you to accept your excuses is that it puts you in an uncomfortable situation. Our ego feels comfortable with the narrative of: ‘I should start this, but I’m too busy.’ But you know what subtly makes it uncomfortable? Accepting that you just don’t want it bad enough.
‘I’m not starting this, because I’m making excuses.’ That’s acceptance.
Sit with that.
This is not me telling you to keep making excuses and avoid the action necessary, but this is me telling you to stop lying to yourself.
Accept yourself.
ALL of yourself.
even the part that makes excuses, the part that fails to act, the part that’s let’s you down so painfully.
If you are not acting on the life you want, don’t worry, because one day you will get sick of yourself.
Looking in the mirror will be hard, conversations with yourself will carry too much weight, and that’s when you’ll get sick of yourself.
One day, you will wake up and realise you've grown bored with your own life. Maybe that day is today.
Thank you for reading, my lovely subscribers <3
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